I have realized something about myself on the mission that I have
wanted to be better at and that is.... I actually don't know what it is
called but for some reason I don't like doing things in front of people
that I am not immediately good at. Or doing something that I am not
fully confident I can do. I wouldn't call it shy or embarrassment, it is
probably my pride now that I think about it. I have been working on it
but I am still far from perfect. For years I wanted to learn how to do
certain things like play the piano, play soccer.... I am sure that I
have other things but those are the only two things on my mind as of
now. For the last 9 months pretty much every p-day the Elders go and
play soccer at the stake center. We were ALWAYS invited to go but never
went. I think with my first companion we would rather do other things
like shop or something like that but definitely not go play soccer. It
was the same with my second and third. I think if I had really wanted to
go play I could have but I just didn't get over that pride until
now.... well I am not over it but I am getting better. Last night we had
a missionary fireside and all the missionaries in both Spanish Zones
decided to play soccer today at 7. My companion and I biked the 6 miles
as a pre-warm up. I was SUPER nervous to play. I don't think I have
played in my life.... I mean maybe once or twice but it was at least 15
years ago. I felt bad because I don't want to hold anyone back from
winning because I, Hermana Fish, was on their team. BUT! I, Hermana
Fish, played my first full on game of soccer! It was like a dream come
true. Heavenly Father is really blessing me with all the things that I
have wanted to do on my mission. I have always wanted to learn how to
speak spanish, I have always wanted to learn how to play the piano and
now I was able to experience playing soccer. I don't think I did that
well but I was able to defend pretty well. I wish I would have played
when I lived in Provo. I can't tell you how many games I went to and
watched my friends play. Of course I love watching them play 1- because
they are my friends and I LOVE watching people I know do things they
love and 2- because I love soccer! I decided in high school that I want
my kids to play soccer so I can continuely have games to go to. I hope
that when I get back to Utah I can play at least on one team. It would
fulfill another my life long dream of mine but we will see. Right now I
have 9 months of Monday's to practice. One of the Elders taught me a few
ways to kick. I need to work on it so I might be kicking the ball
around in our apartment this week.
As for playing the piano I am learning. I can play the top notes on
a few songs. I am still learning the bottom notes. I have decided to
jump right into it and learn both at the same time. I need lots of
practice but I am very happy to be learning. It is about time right? It
is funny that it took me going on a mission to start doing all these
things that I wanted to do.
While I was on the field today playing I realized that my life was
too busy before. I went to work and school or did things with friends. I
rarely took time to learn these things I wanted. Or do things I wanted. I
remember one Saturday I woke up and had this HUGE desire to go for a
hike. Instead I spent the whole day making my costume for a party.
Looking back I wish I would have just listened to my heart. Lesson learned
is that when I get back to non-mission life, I need to stop being so
busy and do things that I have always wanted to do. I have to make time
and slow down a little not be so wrapped in me. It has been and will
continue to be a learning process for me but I am so grateful to be
learning it while I still have the ablitiy to do so.
We had an incredible baptism last night...well two. One was for
this 9 year old we found from a member. His mom was a member but was in
active so this other member referred us to go and teach them. The mom
has started to come back to church when she can because she works on
Sunday's. Her son was is so cute. I will have to send pictures. He said
those sweet honset comments that I sent last week. He was funny because
he didn't want his brother to baptize him...mainly because he thought he
would hold him under the water....so when he got in the water to
baptism his little brother, the little brother said "Hey get out of
here" haha
We also had the baptism for a teenager. She is so great! She has
been through a lot in her life time. Even her baptism was a little
challenging due to certain factors... the adversary... working against
her in all directions.She was golden though. She came to church one time
by herself. She has such a powerful testimony. I can't wait to see her
blossom! Well she is already but even more so. I have to go but I will
write next week! I love you all! Know that I am safe. Mom-don't worry
about those drunk guys. We saw them this week and said hi but nothing
more. It was more of a funny experience then anything. Anyway love you!
-Hermana Fish
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